Written by Amah’s Heart.
James smile and his smile suddenly turned into a frown as he looked ahead at nothing
Mirabel looked at him and new he was worried about something.
She has being the one talking none stop.
trying to keep the environment lively but despite James was nodding and smiling all through the conversation his mind was far and Mirabel noticed his discomfort.
She stretched her hands across the table and touched James.
Mirabel romanced James hands gently.
James return his gaze to her before withdrawing his hands from Mirabel.
He removed his hand from the table, relaxed back. He checked the time before breathing heavily.
“James, what’s troubling you… what is the problem, don’t you like me or is it the environment, talk to me…we can go to my place…I will fix up something for you…
“I’m fine Mirabel…I need to start going home…my wife may…
Mirabel quickly interrupted him.
“Your wife… please stop bringing her into our cool evening … can’t we have a good time without mentioning your wife… don’t you want me… I’m not hiding my feelings for you…I know you are married but to be sincere I have always admire you way back in school…we almost click up but it didn’t work out until I met Cole and you slip off…I love Cole but he is a cheat… and I walked away from him. I didn’t even plan to be with another man until our path cross again… and is unfortunately you were already hooked, I met you again as a married man but I can’t just get you off my mind ever since we met at the mall…I can’t. I’m sorry to nuture this feeling but I just can’t help it James… I’m very plain and straight forward…I hate to hide my feelings if I like someone…it may not go down well with you but I still have to express myself anyway…
James breathed down again and sat properly.
He allowed Mirabel to boldly express herself.
He likes her boldness, not many people have such, he admire her greatly.
She was beautiful, smart and outspoken.
Most importantly she was so friendly.
“Mimi, I admire you greatly, you have always posses this bold nature… you are beautiful, your word is quiet enticing and I feel so attracted right now. Forgive me because I still have to bring my wife into this…I have never cheated on her even while dating, when we couldn’t get intimate. kissing and hugging was not included during my relationship with Michelle but even with all this restriction I did not cheat on her… now I’m married to her, I truly love her and i try to understand her real personality. Sitting out here with you makes me feel like I’m already having an extra Marita affair…I feel guilty sitting here with another woman who is not my wife.
This is the third time I will be hanging out with you…I really do not want to start what I can’t finish…I don’t want to hurt you or my wife but at same time I do not want to go home to an empty house, a home with Just me and myself because Michelle is either busy or out…I love Michelle and is a normal thing for couples to disagree or not understand each other at the first stage of marriage but sincerely speaking I need a friend in my wife…but I don’t get it…I have never spoken out my marital troubles to anyone before except you because I really do want you to understand why I hang out here with you…since we are open to each other I do not want to also paint words or pretend as if all is well or I’m really having fun here because I’m not.. maybe I my find happiness in this outing later but I’m yet to do that…I don’t even know if I’m making any sense to you but just leave the nonsense in all that I said and hold unto the reasonable ones…
“I totally understand James, I’m sorry for whatever you maybe passing through and I respect you…I will also respect the fact that you need ordinary friend and not intimate friend…I will be your friend and listen to all your troubles anytime you feel like sharing… I’m sorry for anything taking joy away from your fine lips…i will never want to wreck your home or worsen the present situation at hand…I will try to control my feelings which is already running Wilde for you…but also Forgive me if I decided to nurture it…
They had another cool evening in the open eatery, talking until James stood up to go.
He dropped Mirabel off at her bustop and went home.
Michelle was sitting in the living room watching a gospel television programme.
She was shouting “Amen” on top of her voice as the television preacher preached on.
She told James welcome as he stepped into the house and continued with her television programme
James went to have his bath by the time he came out his food was already waiting for him on the dining.
He sat to eat, he has always enjoyed Michelle’s cooking today was no different.
It was a new delicacy and it taste great.
Michelle went back to her gospel programme and kept shouting Amen.
James called her and she came to stand beside him.
James had a long face on.
“James, don’tn’t you like the food…
“I do, it taste great…I don’t think you have made this before…
“No, I haven’t, a sister in the Lord thought me. I met her during that revival, and when we were conversing she told me about the delicacy so I decided to try it out… I’m glad you like it.
James nodded and went on eating without a word. Michelle left him to her television.
James went to work the following day, he got a message from Mirabel asking him how his day was going.
He replied immediately the message came into his phone.
He asked her “hope you is not offended from what i said yesterday”
and Mirabel assured him that she was not.
James called her when he was about to close from work and they hanged out that evening again.
Mirabel was wearing a short tight gown which revealed her thighs and shape.
She wore little make up and applied red lipstick.
She also sprayed a fine cologne and James loves the fragrance.
He complimented her as he drove down to drop her off.
“You smell nice…I love the sweet fragrance…
“Really, is a gift from a friend… thank you James…
Mirabel went on talking until she got to where she will come down.
She looked at James who smile before looking down at her exposed thigh.
James quickly looked away.
Mirabel then said
“I want to do something…I know is crazy but I don’t want you to be mad at me…
Before James could ask what it was Mirabel locked lips with him.
She kissed him, James returned the kiss passionately without resistance and got himself together when his phone started ringing, he gently pushed Mirabel away.
He was breathing heavily and checked the caller and it was his wife. He couldn’t pick the call as he looked at Mirabel
“Mi.. Mirabel… We shouldn’t have done that…I..
“I know James… I’m sorry, just couldn’t help myself on how much of a gentle man you have being…I asked you not to be mad at me please…
James nodded and watch her as she quietly went down from the car.
James held his head in his hand after Mirabel left the car.
He wish he can rewind the kiss with Mirabel and delete it completely from his memory.
He felt bad that he forgot himself and got carried away with Mirabel.
He could have resisted the urge to kiss her back but he didn’t fight it but held her in his arms and kiss her as if he has never kissed a woman before.
James drove off to the house. When he got home Michelle was sleeping on the sofa right in the parlour.
The television was showing a church programme.
He wanted to quietly walk past but Michelle woke up and greeted him.
She stood up from the sofa and checked the time it was almost 10pm.
She went to James who was going into the room.
“James what happened… you came back late from work yesterday and today again…I called you but you didn’t pick up… was there a emergency at work?
“Yea, something like that… I got things that kept me busy…I was busy when you called…
Michelle was about going to set his food on the dining when she noticed something.
“Is that a paint or blood on your lips and shirt…
James thought within him Mirabel might have stained him with her red lipstick when they kissed and he did not check the mirror.
He started using his hands to clean up the mark.
Michelle went close and check his lips, she noticed that it looks like a red lipstick.
“James…is that a lip stick.. how come… how do you get it to your lips and shirt…?
“I…I can’t remember how a lipstick or whatever it might be got to my face and shirt…is either from what I ate, it might have come from anywhere…let me go and refresh… I’m so tired…
He walked away, Michelle waved the negative ideas off her head as she warm up his food and set it out for him.
She was done setting out her husband food but James did not come out to eat.
She waited and when she did not see him she went inside and met him lying down.
His eyes were shut as he lay face up.
“James what’s happening… what is wrong…are you not eating… your food is on the dining…
James opened his eyes and looked at her.
“I’m not hungry Michelle…I just want to sleep… I’m tired from today’s work load…
“Sorry about that, I’m working on securing a good job so that I can lessen the burden on you… I have sta..
James interrupted her.
“Michelle…we have talked about this before… I don’t like repeating myself…I told you before that I do not want you to work… what are you going to be working for…my pay is enough for both of us and even to cover far more expenses than the present ones… please let’s not start another argument on that because I’m too tired…I want to sleep.
“James today is Friday, you have tomorrow and next to sleep… did anybody offend you at work today…
James ignored her and shut his eyes again.
Michelle left him to arrange things before coming back to the bed.
She read her Bible and prayed that night before sleeping.
The next day Saturday, she did the laundry and clean up the house while James watch television and iron cloths.
She made food and they ate but James did not converse much during the day.
In the night he lay on the bed browsing with his phone.
He was chatting with Mirabel who was apologizing for what happened between them in his car yesterday.
After their chat James dropped his phone and slept off.
Michelle after doing her night prayer quietly lie down beside her husband.
She was surprised that James who always looked out for every weekend intimacy with her slept off.
Michelle went moved closer to James and try touching him but James told her that he wasn’t in such mood.
“James… what is wrong with you…I have being asking you this same question but you said you are fine but act differently..
“Michelle, when I said I was fine I meant it… I’m not in for this weekend love making anymore…if you fixed our intimacy only on weekends is high time you reamend it.. because I’m no more interested in it.. I’m already use to not even getting it at all.. so let’s remain that way since that’s what you signed… please allow me sleep in peace.
Michelle was shocked that James was turning her down.
James that can’t wait each weekend to have her is now turning her down.
She quietly lay on the bed staring at the ceiling and wondering what was wrong with her husband.
“Why the sudden change…What could be the problem with James”
Michelle thought within herself as she lay awake most part of the night wondering.
She later decided to pray against whatever that maybe troubling James.
James stood up and left the room for her with his phone as Michelle began to fire prayer none stop.
Michelle was troubled, she couldn’t concentrate while praying for her husband.
She sat right opposite, her heart was heavy, she blinked back the tears clouding her eyes.
“…what do think could be the problem, I don’t know him to be like this…why the sudden change…
Michelle sniffed and bent her head, she was quiet for sometime before she straightened again.
” I don’t Just know… pastor I don’t know what happened to him. I couldn’t take it anymore that was why I ran to you because I trust your judgement and you will understand… James changed overnight…is almost two months now can you believe within this two months I can only count twice he touched me… James comes back late from work every day and has formed that as a habit..he hardly eats at home anymore and even weekend that he supposed to be home he still goes out…he wasn’t like this before pastor… sometimes he will be smelling of one cheap perfume… I’m tired of asking him what the problem is and getting “I am fine” as an answer when i know he wasn’t fine.
I know James pastor, he loves making out with me, he can’t miss those weekend for anything ever since we got married but now he doesn’t even have interest at all…is like we are two strangers living together…I feel it more because I don’t work…he asked me not to work so I stay home or come to church fellowship…I don’t like staying home yet I obeyed him…I don’t just know what the problem is…he is probably having an affair…if he is not getting it from me he maybe getting the intimacy from another lady… just that thoughts alone is killing me slowly…he is always with his phone, chatting and smiling and I don’t know who he is chatting with, I don’t intrude into his privacy, despite we are married I respect him and keep to my space, James clung to his phone any time he is home ignoring me as if I’m invisible… pastor he is probably seeing another woman…
The pastor breathed deeply as he sat quietly listening to Michelle, he can hear the pain from her voice as she speaks
He tried not to interrupt her and allowed her to voice out all her troubles.
When Michelle was done talking the man of God spoke.
“Your husband loves you Michelle, James is a strong and vibrant young man and he never hides his feelings when it comes to you… something is probably wrong somewhere for him to be acting this way but do not think James is cheating on you… because he stays out late, mostly found with his phone and doesn’t make out in bed as he should doesn’t means he is having affair… don’t draw your conclusion on this…he did not do it when you are still dating he won’t start now…he can’t start being with another woman now that you two are married… God will not allow your home to be open for the enemy to crip in… everything will be fine… wait let me call him, I don’t know if he will be chance to come down here this weekend… let me find out first… don’t cry again God is in control…
The pastor called James who was in the office by then.
James picked up the phone immediately as he saw the caller.
“Hello pastor… good afternoon..
“God bless you my son… I believe today’s work is moving on fine…I called because I really need to see you… your wife is here with me and she told me alot of things which I can’t start discussing over the phone with you…I wish to see you and your wife this weekend… will you be free?
James agreed to see the pastor after Sunday service.
When he got home, Michelle did not say anything to him, she has already set his food on the dining and was watching television.
He sometimes doesn’t eat the food but Michelle wasn’t discouraged as she continued to put out his food
James refreshed and still did not eat., He went to bed straight
Michelle was so pained but she tried not to show her pain as she packed up the food to the kitchen.
She put off the television and went inside and James was in bed with his phone.
She was so angry that she went and slapped the phone off from his hands.
The phone flew to one corner of the room, James quickly went to pick up his phone.
“Why did you do that… what is your problem Michelle?
“James, I supposed to be asking you what is your own problem… what did I do to you that are treating me like a stranger…
“You are asking me what you did… Michelle, you started the fire and you are still the one running to report to pastor…do you also tell him what you did or you just sugar coat it to favour yourself…
“James, are you having an affair…
James paused from talking and stare at his wife.
Everywhere fell silent for a second before he said
“What are talking about…why will you think I’m having affair… wait… hope you did not tell Pastor that I’m having an affair like you once wanted to tell him that I raped you… Michelle. you know what, I’m sleeping in another room so that you will have peace…
“James, why are you not coming close to me again… you hardly touch me… just answer me…are you seeing another woman… because if you aren’t getting it from me then you must be getting it from another…
James began to laugh, he later gave Michelle a funny look and said
“You are not serious, when do you start caring if I touch you or not…I thought you hate to be disturbed now I left you alone and you are still complaining… what exactly do you want… you are so confused and I’m not sure I will ever understand you…I am not seeing another woman… you are pushing me to do things I don’t like but I’m not having affair… finds it difficult to cheat on you… I’m only avoiding your troubles by staying late… Michelle, you are Just unbelievable…
James left the room to sleep in another.
On Sunday after church they waited to see the pastor.
” Mr James, I know you to be a good man who loves his wife dearly just as he should… I’m not happy with the complains I’m getting from your wife, mostly over neglecting her, her needs and feeling…I wanted to see you and know what exactly is the problem… what’s really going on…
“Thank you pastor for wanting to hear from me, I respect you so much and I know you and big Mummy have being married for so many years, over two decades. you understand each. When I got married I thought I understand my wife but along the line I found out that I don’t even know who she is..I know the Bible said there’s time for everything but in the case of Michelle she just do things anytime she likes, I’m not talking about the sex aspect, I don’t even want to go into discussing it because she does not do well in that area. I want to sit, gist and laugh with my wife but Michelle will not give me audience… she is always busy with either prayer, attending one church programme or Bible which I wasn’t against but try and create time for me… she refused then I decided to leave her alone and Live my life now she is complaining… pastor I don’t know what she wants again…
Michelle was quiet she decided not to interrupt or say anything.
After James was done, the pastor spoke.
“Mr James, from your voice I can see you aren’t happy, not just because of your wife but something is eating at you… you two are young couple. whatever took that fire and spark away from your eyes God will restore it back…do not give room to the devil to penetrate into your home…I don’t want to quote scriptures upon scriptures for you but I want to remind both of you that God instituted marriage. the scripture said husband love your wife as Christ loves the church. Wives submit to your husbands, for a husband is the head his wife’s as Christ is the head of the church. As the church submit to Christ so wives should submit to your husband in everything. As much as God should be the centre of your home you two should also create time for yourself… Michelle my daughter, please listen to me, I understand you love and want to please God, I see your passion of services to him but you have to be guided in wisdom so that your home will not suffer… your husband is the head of the home and you should be his helpmate, supporting him, gisting with him, loving and respecting him… spice up your home and bring back that lost spark. James… love your wife, let only your wife breast satisfy you and not of a strange woman. love her weakness and help her in every area, when you give attention to another woman who is not your wife you are disrespecting your wife and also punching a hole on the wall for the enemy to crip in. two of you have become one the moment you exchange your vows on the alter. What you will not like her to do to you do not do to her… consider her feelings first before taking any action. Same thing applies to yo too Michelle… marriage is not a smooth ride, there will be potholes but don’t break down instead clinch to each other and keep moving…
After the meeting with the pastor they went home.
And stayed together that night, everything was all smooth and loving for them that evening
That night as James slept after having a good time with his wife his phone was vibrating.
Michelle was awake doing her night study and noticed James phone vibrating.
She didn’t want to wake her husband up for the call so she ignored it.
There was a message tone then the phone started vibrating again.
She decided to go and silent the phone.
When she picked up the phone and saw the caller’s name as “Mimi” Michelle became curious and checked the message which was on the phone screen. And it reads
“Hey sweetie…I didn’t hear from you today, thought you will come out after church or send a message…I missed you honey pie… Friday’s kiss is so fresh on my mind and I can’t wait to get more of that… maybe you will come over to my place after work tomorrow so we can be together…my body is all yours do not be afraid to eat me raw… stop worrying about your wife when we are together… she has misused her time… she is married to her Bible…me I want you every second… reply me if you are still awake…kisseses….
The phone was shaking in Michel’s hand as she read the message from whoever Mimi was.
Her husband’s lover.
She was afraid to check anything further in the phone.
She quietly dropped the phone and walked out of the room.
Michelle was shocked and couldn’t believe that James was truly having an affair.
The whole late night and rejecting her cooking was all because of Mimi.
Why he has being misbehaving and refused to touch her was all because of Mimi.
Michelle was heart broken as she sat on the floor in their living room and wept.
The following morning James did not know what happens as he awake to dress up for work but didn’t see Michelle in the room.
He went to the other room and she wasn’t there, he saw her sleeping on the floor in the living room.
He went to wake her up to go inside the room and lie down on the bed
Michelle ignored him.
James left her to prepare for work not knowing what happened as he slept last night.